"Strengthen your mind and refuse to carry the mental and moral weaknesses acquired in past years. Burn them in the fires of your present divine resolutions and right activities. By this constructive attitude you will attain freedom."
-Paramahansa Yogananda quote found in "The Four Desires" by Rod Stryker
Happy 2018 my friends! I hope this new year finds you well and full of fresh energy. This year is going to bring us good things, I can feel it.
My New Year's Eve, however, started with tears. I had graciously declined all invitations to parties that night under the pretense that I was not feeling up for crowds. I was feeling good, just introspective. I spent the evening working in the studio making beautiful music and feeling fine about my decision until 10:30pm hit me and I suddenly realized, "Oh no! I don't want to be alone at midnight!" I don't know why the countdown matters so much to me. It's a silly thing, but I like the playfulness of it.
I was not entirely alone. I had my father working in the studio with me and he gave me a big hug while I cried. Then I went inside and wallowed in my sadness for a little while. It's funny because one of my New Year's Resolutions stated earlier that day was to "stop wallowing in my sadness." The thing about New Year's is I have so many memories associated with that day. A lot of good ones. And quite a few sad ones. And for some reason whenever it rolls around I return to that cocoon of sadness, the comfort of habit. But it's a habit that doesn't make me happy.
And so yesterday I stumbled upon this quote at the top of the page. I'm rolling these words around my mouth today and have decided this is my one, deep, committed New Year's Resolution: "I refuse to carry the mental and moral weaknesses acquired in past years and will burn them in the fires of my present divine resolutions and right activities." Again and again. I will start again and again. Because of this I declare today as my true New Year's Day, and perhaps even every single day.
In the end my friend Joe came over right before midnight and we shared the first few hours of the new year drinking water and talking about life and my spirits lifted completely.
Be strong friends. Breathe deep. Let your love shine. I'm so excited to share this new album with you soon.
Big love to all,